With my semester officially complete and 2012 winding down, I’ve had some time to reflect on the past year. A lot has happened.
- I quit my job in marketing
- I started a teacher certification program
- I got married
- I enjoyed a honeymoon
- I adopted a puppy
- I struggled with entering college for the 2nd time
- I cried because I missed my family back home
- I de-cluttered my life
- I chopped 6 inches off my hair
- I tried all kinds of new veggies with our summer CSA
- I got a part-time job
- I started Sunday breakfasts with J
- I quit my part-time job
- I started daily devotions
- I ran my first 5k’s
And through everything, I haven’t looked back. I haven’t second guessed or questioned what got me to this point today. October (the 1 year anniversary of quitting my job and changing my course) came and went without much notice. And that seems appropriate. Life went on just as it should. I can say, for the first time in my life, that I am 100% at peace. Sure, there are still things that bother me. There are still things that send me into a panic attack. And there are still things that I avoid at all costs. But I am happy. And I know that I’m on the right track.
The peace I’m talking about is kind of hard to explain. It’s knowing that everything will work out even if I can’t see how (yet). It’s feeling fulfilled by going into the schools and working with my kids each semester. It’s getting through the tough times because it’s going to be worth it in the end. It’s not worrying what other people may think of my choices. It’s having a loving husband to come home to and a supportive family just a phone call away.
There’s going to be a lot of uncertainty in the next year for J and I, but I have never felt more confident in my (our) ability to make the most of it. So thank you to everyone who has been part of my learning experience over the past year. I’m so lucky to have each of you in my life. And here’s to continued peace in 2013!